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October 20, 2009 | 11:29pm
Mood: depressed
Music: Annie - I Don't Like Your Band

Didn't get the job in Wonju, but I have another interview tomorrow evening (at the same time as ANTM, LAME), so whatever. The new interview was supposed to be Sunday, but my recruiter told me today that it was this evening, and then contacted me after I'd already spent half an hour waiting for a call. He then proceeded to tell me that he'd screwed up and that they'd rescheduled for tomorrow.

I'll be honest with you: I don't really give a fuck about South Korea or teaching abroad or any of that anymore. But I don't know what else I could do. I'm very attracted to the idea of studying Geology, but I'm shit at science and math. Same with Nursing, which is also of interest to me right now. I think I could handle it if I put a lot of effort into it, but I don't know. I just want a steady career. Is that too much to ask? But who am I kidding? If I get a job offer, of course I'll go to Korea. I'm just disgusted with this entire process is all.

NaNoWriMo thoughts: I may rewrite my 2007 NaNovel. It's probably the best thing I've ever written, I just need to finish it up (another 50k will do it) and fix up some glaring errors. I'm also thinking of writing a romance novel - like, a Harlequin - but I need to come up with a plot first. I can see it now: A. T. Miller, the most popular romance novelist in the world, with 32 New York Times bestsellers. I'm doomed to a future of awkward heterosexual sex scenes and hiding my real sex behind my initials, aren't I?

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from: aodh
date: October 21, 2009 03:47pm (UTC)
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Same here re: the title of this entry. Basically it describes my life to a 't'.

Everyone I've talked to/everything I've read about teaching abroad made it sound easy. I was reading estimates where it was supposed to take 4 months, max, to find a job and get out of the country. Yeah, not so much. Ugh, I don't even fucking care any more.

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from: euphoric1dr
date: October 21, 2009 06:03pm (UTC)
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you should just come here to taiwan! seriously in the town i am in, a small city - they need foreign teachers so badly. the only thing is because you are not a girl (its stupid opinions on their behalf, that's what I think anyway) they wouldn't allow you to share the apt i am in =( but i think you could find housing separately which would still be for very, very cheap. they REALLY need help here! you will seriously be in demand and have no problems finding work. even if you don't find placement at the school i am at, there are many other 'cram' schools and elementary/kindergartens here that need your help. i'm starting to feel honestly that korea is just more competitive because everyone is allure by the big city of seoul. but i think there's a lot to be gained by being in the smaller cities!

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from: aodh
date: October 22, 2009 04:17am (UTC)
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I would LOVE to be in Taiwan, but--I just worry a lot that if I buy a plane ticket without somewhere to live/at least some job prospects, I'd be screwing myself over. I'm sooo tempted though! I'm certainly not adverse to working/living in a smaller city (I'd even prefer it), I just don't necessarily feel comfortable going without any prospects... I dunno. I'll have to think about it. I'm just about at the point where I really would be willing to pick up and go, but since I've never been out of the US before it's incredibly intimidating...

How is life in Taiwan? It sounds good, at least based on your comment here... is teaching going well? Think your school could use a male teacher? (I'm gay, I'm practically female anyways!) (I can't believe I just said that, even jokingly, but it made me laugh out loud so it's going to stay!) hahaha. :P

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from: euphoric1dr
date: October 22, 2009 04:54pm (UTC)
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lol! i know what you mean...i can understand how you'd feel it was a little risky to do so...but i do think that honestly in taiwan its so easy to find all of that to work out - a place to stay, a job because so many schools all around here need teachers. i'll ask again at my school if they could consider a male teacher, and if you were willing to try find your own place to stay. then maybe they can give me some information on a place to stay for you. but i don't blame you in the least for wanting more of a guarantee job lined up, before you decided to pack up and leave anywhere. have you looked into other job possibilities in taiwan though? maybe you could find something in other schools, / in other cities? ok, i'll keep you posted though! =)

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Adam

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from: aodh
date: October 22, 2009 05:47pm (UTC)
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Yeah, if money wasn't an issue I'd seriously just buy a plane ticket and go--but--it is, so I just can't warrant the expense, not for something that is so iffy. If you could ask at your school, that'd be fantastic! I'd definitely be willing to find my own place to stay... I like living by myself actually (and I kind of miss it). I would be willing to go anywhere else in Taiwan (like I've said before, I'd prefer to go to Taiwan over Korea), but nothing has panned out yet... actually, now that I think about it, I think if I were to have job interviews lined up with various schools BEFORE I came over, I'd be willing to go to Taiwan without a job first. That would just give me a bit of job security, you know? Ehhh. I'm going to look into this some more. Maybe something will come up...

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from: mintsonpillows
date: October 21, 2009 06:56pm (UTC)
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For the longest time I remember you being so motivated to teach abroad. I'm glad you aren't still doing it just because you have interviews lined up but because you're interested in another area of study. I wanted to be a nurse but the only problem was the programs were a) highly competitive and b)I didnt and would never get accepted into any of them.

Everyone wants a steady career, I know I do. You'll figure it out eventually.

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from: aodh
date: October 22, 2009 04:13am (UTC)
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Yeah, I really do want to teach abroad... I just... don't know what's going wrong. It's incredibly disheartening. I bet you'd be able to get accepted to a Nursing program if you tried! You're plenty smart. I'm toying with Geology/Nursing because both lead to steady careers that seem interesting to me, but... I'm just not a science person. On the other hand, I've never really put a lot of effort into science classes before, so I don't know how I'd do. That's probably how it'd be with you. :)

Yeah, I'll figure it out eventually. I just hope it happens sooner rather than later. :/

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