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July 17, 2008 | 09:49pm
Mood: overcast
Music: Neva Dinova - Clouds

Russian midterm: 5. That is because I kick ass on all sorts of levels. Plus, I actually understand verbal adverbs (e.g. "While eating dinner, they talked about life" - "Ужиная, они разговаривали о жизни"). That's pretty exciting. Tomorrow we have a test covering chapter 5 for which I kinda haven't studied, but whatever. I'll survive. Maybe.

While I haven't exactly been eating healthy as of late, I have been eating smaller portions. See, my primary issue with food is that I have no concept of self-control. I'll eat a big bag of potato chips in a day, an entire pizza in a few hours, and so on. I really have to struggle not to eat like this, but it's damn difficult. I'm still a fat kid at heart (possibly literally!), and I never actually learned proper eating habits. But yeah, getting back to the subject: this week I've been successful in portion control, although there was a 28 hour period in which I didn't eat a thing, but that was kind of an accident. Regardless of my utter and complete failure as a human being, hey! At least I'm making progress.

I don't know what I'm going to do after I graduate. Just a few days ago I realized that I have to take the GRE fairly soon. "Fairly soon" being in two months, maybe three. This has provoked even more stress over what the hell I'm going to do after I graduate.

To be perfectly honest, I'm a little surprised that I've even managed to stay alive this long. To clarify that statement: I've always, always obsessed and worried about the future, but I've also had trouble picturing myself in the future. That turned into the thought that I may not live love enough to actually experience the future. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I'll commit suicide or anything. I'm probably the last person who would ever kill themselves. Instead, I sort of see myself as... not existing. Somehow. Now you know a little about what I write about in my super secret! private journal entries.

But yeah, getting back to the point of this entry: the GRE is freaking me out and I don't know what I'm going to do with my life (read: things to which I may or may not be applying over the next 6 months or so). I've considered just about everything under the sun. Here are the highlights:

- Grad school: teaching English as a foreign language, Russian Linguistics, Russian Literature, Russian and Eastern European Studies. However, if I do grad school next year, I'll probably burn out. Plus, I really want to leave the country.

- Methods of leaving/fleeing the country: Peace Corps, Fulbright, NSEP Boren Fellowship, teaching English in another country (see next paragraph). I probably won't get the Fulbright/Boren Fellowship. Frankly, I'd totally do the Peace Corps, but there's a good chance that I wouldn't end up in a Russian speaking country... which is an issue. I'm going to get fluent, goddammit. (The Peace Corps also has programs set up with grad schools across the country, basically with extra benefits. This is a plus.)

- Teaching English in another country: Russia, South Korea, France. France is... well, I'm probably going to apply to the French Teaching Assistantship, but I don't think I'll do it unless I have absolutely no other choice. South Korea is a good option, since you can make a ton of money; however, I don't speak Korean (yet?), and I'd probably lose my Russian. You don't make much money in Russia, and it's not especially easy to find a job there. However, getting to Russia/a Russian-speaking country is my #1 priority.

- Study abroad on my own. There are programs at various universities throughout Russia (programs in Voronezh, Novosibirsk, and Kazan are my top options) where you just improve your Russian. I would love this, but I simply don't have the money.

Basically, the plan is to go abroad for a few years - preferably somewhere where I can speak Russian. I'll then come back and... possibly go for a grad degree in TEFL/Applied Linguistics. Odds are I'll end up as a teacher of some sort. I just want to speak Russian and have a semi-respectable career and have my college loans paid off by the time I'm 30 so I can start a family and not be a total bum for the rest of the life.

But hell, I don't know. I still need to see if I'll be alive in a year.

Is that so much to ask? Probably.

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evilfishytank

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from: evilfishytank
date: July 18, 2008 02:57am (UTC)
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I've had the whole "HOLY SHIT, REAL LIFE AFTER COLLEGE,WHAT DO I DO." thing last semester.

I found a solution. I might have even talked to you about it.

I'm going to create a commune in northern Wisconsin for liberal arts/humanities majors. We'll grow cherries and cranberries.

And you can speak Russian there. I'm just not sure to who, though.

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Adam

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from: aodh
date: July 18, 2008 10:59pm (UTC)
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You haven't mentioned this to before... but I am intrigued by your ideas and would like to subscribe to your newsletter. ;)

Oh, and it's not like I actually need to talk to anyone in Russian - I talk enough to myself to make up for anyone else... *cough*

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Bedlam boys are bonny

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from: mad_maudlin
date: July 18, 2008 09:06am (UTC)
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You can tell the Peace Corps recruiter that you really, really want to go to a Russian-speaking country, and even decline a certain number of offers if they're not Russian enough for you. I think the posts in Kazakhstan, Kyrgyzstan and Azerbaijan all involve some degree of Russian experience, if you're not worried about our near-constant budget problems.

Honestly, when I told a recruiter that I'd studied Russian, his eyes actually lit up. There are one or two people here who I think only got placed in KZ because of their Russian experience. It's worth exploring.

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Adam

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from: aodh
date: July 18, 2008 11:02pm (UTC)
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Okay, your comment here really cheered me up... having read this, I'm much more interested in applying than I was before! It really is a great opportunity. I've just been worried that they'd send me off to Africa, since I also speak French...

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Bedlam boys are bonny

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from: mad_maudlin
date: July 21, 2008 09:50am (UTC)
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You know, there's a "Language Experience" portion of the application, and what you put there is totally up to you. I left off French and Chinese from mine since I really wanted Central Asia/Eastern Europe, and figured Russian and German would look better. Not that I'm encouraging you to lie to a recruiter...but bear in mind, there are people here in KZ who majored in Spanish. If in doubt, say you're terrified of snakes.

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Adam

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from: aodh
date: July 22, 2008 02:13am (UTC)
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Hahaha. Well, I'm certainly not fond of snakes... I'll keep that in mind. ;)

I think I'll definitely have to put down French, since I kinda minored in it and all. Oh well... I'll just say that I don't do well in warm climates. ;) Or, uh, something, haha.

Some other questions: you need volunteering experience for the Peace Corps, right? If you're (probably) going to teach English, do you need experience doing so? What did you do? I'm a bit of a slacker and the only thing I'd be able to put as "volunteering" (thus far) is teaching French for 4 months... but that's just because I wasn't paid. Hmmmm. I'll have to look into volunteering in Kirksville...

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Bedlam boys are bonny

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from: mad_maudlin
date: July 23, 2008 09:23am (UTC)
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You don't need volunteering experience, but it does look good...I put down Rock the Vote and a Habitat for Humanity trip to New Orleans, and got one of the guys who coordinated the latter to write one of my recommendation letters. As for teaching experience, it's not necessary, though again, it looks good--I had the Writing Center and some stuff at the MAC to list, but plenty of people came here with no teaching experience whatsoever. Trust me, the pre-service training model is designed to take you from zero to sixty in twelve weeks flat, in both language and your primary assignment.

As for volunteering in Kirkville, hmmm...you could talk to Hablados Unidos, possibly, and that would be both teaching and volunteering. I'm not sure if you need Spanish experience to work with them or not.

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Adam

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from: aodh
date: July 24, 2008 03:51am (UTC)
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Ah, thank you so much for the info! You're awesome. I'm going to look into volunteering in the fall, just in case... but now I'm not quite as worried as I was. What a relief. :)

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Hurricane Tracey

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from: tigersinacage
date: July 18, 2008 08:36pm (UTC)
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i'm trying to teach myself portion control as well. i eat terribly in the summer for some reason.

eek, the future freaks me out as well and i hate to think about it!
but actually, one of my friends is teaching english in korea now, and loves it. she didn't know any korean when she went over there. i know another girl who's going over there next month as well, and i don't think she speaks korean either, so i don't think it's a requirement. but yeah, probably not much opportunity to speak russian :/

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Adam

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from: aodh
date: July 18, 2008 11:05pm (UTC)
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I KNOW! I seriously lost weight when I went to college... whereas being home with my parents gives me the equivalent to the freshman 15.

yeah, I know people who've gone to teach English in Korea/Japan/China and don't speak the language... but I'm weird and I'd probably focus more on learning the language than actually teaching English. And yeah, I probably wouldn't be able to speak Russian... but... one of my friends was in Vietnam a few weeks ago and she found someone with whom she spoke Russian, haha, so it's always a possibility!

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Adam

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from: aodh
date: July 20, 2008 12:44am (UTC)
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haha, it's nice to "meet" a fellow Truman NaNoer! There can never be enough of us...

Believe it or not, I've also been plotting out my next NaNo novel... although I may end up writing it for novel_in_90, since November's so far away. Thanks for the congrats, and congratulations on your win as well! My AIM s/n is massdynamite, so feel free to message me if you'd like. I'm on a lot - perhaps too much? haha.

Oh, thanks for the good luck! I'm kinda dreading the GRE, but oh well, I can always retake it if need be. (DEFINITELY take Russian at Truman! The professor who teaches it is incredibly intense but one of the best teachers I've ever had. And it's so cool that your dad speaks/spoke that many languages... one day that'll be me. Or. Um. Not, haha.)

Have a good evening :)

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