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May 27, 2008 | 05:11pm
Mood: frustrated, lonely, depressed
Music: God is an Astronaut - Twilight

Whenever I come home, I:
1) lose structure
2) revert to a very immature mentality (i.e. letting my parents take care of everything), and
3) get wildly depressed.
I know I can live without my parents - I've proven that several times over, simply by living over 400 miles away and not coming home every .02 seconds - but it's still too close.

When I graduate, I am not coming back here. Of course, I plan on escaping the USA for The Untamed Wilds of Europe and/or Africa and/or Asia and/or... well, I don't really know where I'll be going, but I'll be going somewhere, dammit. I've got plans. And backup plans. And backup plans to my backup plans. And, if none of those plans work out, well... I don't know what I'll do. But no, I do not plan on returning to the Midwaste.

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from: alldigital
date: June 6, 2008 10:36pm (UTC)
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My parents is far far away fro me
I had not good relationships with them, but when I moved to NZ we started to be more close and more attentive to each other.
They started to respect my feelings, my view, all what am I doing
And they are happy for me....even I am far from home :-)

My mom started learn English and she learned how to use computer :-)
And you know what I understand.....you true home is a place where you can feel comfortable....where your soul feels good :-)

So if you decided to go....just do it :-)

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from: aodh
date: June 6, 2008 11:28pm (UTC)
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I've always had a good relationship with my parents, but I definitely appreciate them more when we aren't living in the same house! haha

I'm glad your relationship with your parents has improved over the years. What made you decide to move to NZ?

I've wanted to explore the world - live in other countries - for years... and one way or another, I'm going to do it. I just need to graduate... and decide on a country... and find a job... yeah. With any luck I'll be heading off to Russia/France/somewhere in about a year. :)

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from: alldigital
date: June 6, 2008 11:53pm (UTC)
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Firstly I always dreamed to go to NZ :-)
Its nice and quiet country. I love nature and I hate big cities. I'm originally from Moscow where population at least 8-9 million people (some experts suppose that its more)
So, 27 years living in big city and staying in one place is enough for me :-)))))

The other reason is a good price for education.....compare with Europe and Australia (as for USA it is difficult to take a visa to go).

I also don't happy with the current Russian politics and some other things :-)

I've done my first degree in Russia, but I want new experience and see the world :-)
Thats why my favorite television broadcast is "Amazing Race" :-)

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Adam

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from: aodh
date: June 7, 2008 01:11am (UTC)
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Very cool! I'm from Chicago in the US (which is maybe the third largest city in the country), so I understand how you feel about cities... I love nature, so sooner or later I'd like to live somewhere with access to something other than the concrete jungle. :P

New Zealand is somewhere I'd like to go someday... maybe not live there, but at least visit. Then again, who am I kidding? I want to go pretty much everywhere, haha.

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from: alldigital
date: June 7, 2008 01:44am (UTC)
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Oh if you like countryside I suggest you go to Scotland first :-)
I was in Scotland for two weeks and I fall in love this country :-)
Very beautiful landscapes, lakes, old castles.... :-)
And its a chance to see a Lochness monster :-))))

I've got many photos of New Zealand, may be I will put some into my journal soon :-)

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Adam

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from: aodh
date: June 7, 2008 05:18am (UTC)
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I'd love to go to Scotland... and maybe see the Loch Ness monster. ;)

You should definitely put up pictures of NZ in your journal! I'd be interested to see what it looks like outside of the Lord of the Rings movies, haha.

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