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Long, Introspective, and Deliberately Melodramatic (Or: My Life)

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February 16, 2007 | 10:55pm
Mood: suffocating in here.
Music: Ambulance LTD - Swim

I call it my Great Escape.

I have wanted to travel for as long as I can remember; admittedly, I can't remember what I had for breakfast this morning, so that isn't saying much. I want to see the world, explore cultures worlds away from my own, learn new things, etc. As Ambulance LTD so eloquently puts it, I want to "shake hands with foreign lands." I was going to start by studying abroad in France, or maybe India. Or Finland.

And then I got to college, and study abroad is within reach... but my indecisiveness worked against me yet again. Now I have to fit my major(s) into the next four semesters, and study abroad just isn't going to work out. And that's ridiculous, since I'm majoring in a fucking foreign language.

So. My new plan developed sometime after I declared my Russian major; after graduation, I will find a job teaching English in a foreign country. Any country. I will work and live and travel outside of the US for five years, and then I'll consider settling down somewhere, spreading roots instead of reaching for the sun. Not a day goes by without my fantasizing about moving to Russia, or Syria, or Brazil, or even South Korea.

But sometimes I think I shouldn't wait. Sometimes, I think that I should go now--drop out of college, make my way to China. Senegal. Croatia. It'd be so much easier, so much less expensive, to save the money, avoid the loans, and just get out. However, doing this without a job offer, or even a degree, would be next to impossible... and downright stupid. Really, incredibly stupid. But shouldn't I take advantage of the present?

What I really need is to meet & fall in love with someone from a foreign country and move to be with them. We'll survive on love, 60s style, and maybe sell drugs/our bodies/our children to pay for our education. I'll get my Great Escape. And when we break up, at least I'll have a ton of great memories and stories. At least I'll have lived.

And that's the important thing, isn't it?

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Beautiful Disaster

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from: angelkutty
date: February 17, 2007 05:01am (UTC)
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I'm pretty sure you've already thought about this a million times, but why don't you go somewhere for spring/summer/winter break? Is it just the money reason?

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Adam

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from: aodh
date: February 17, 2007 05:14am (UTC)
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Yeah, I've thought about it... the main issue is a lack of time/money. Next summer I'm taking 9-12 credit hours & the summer after that I'm taking another 6 (to get an extra year of Russian out of the way). Plus, the only money I have to my name is going to pay for my plane ticket out of the US. I could go on, but yeah... unless a miracle happens, it just ain't happening. :(

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from: brittnik
date: February 17, 2007 05:04am (UTC)
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Absolutely. I wish I had your ability with language, ack. but I admire your plan- I've thought about moving to another country, but all that technical bullshit gets in my thinking process. Could you still do something in the summer, though, some short abroad program?

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Adam

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from: aodh
date: February 17, 2007 05:21am (UTC)
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Haha, thanks... I definitely went through that entry and found 3492 mistakes. Oops! (Apparently I lose my facility with grammar/spelling when I get introspective.)

But yeah, I've done a ton of research on all of this, & moving to another country isn't THAT difficult... if you have already have a prospective employer. If you'd be willing to teach English, check out eslcafe.com--they have some great info on the subject.

Next summer I'm taking 9-12 credit hours & the summer after that I'm taking 6. All of those classes are required to graduate. Plus, I just don't have the money to study abroad, unless it's during the school year. Bah!

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Meg

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from: star6929
date: February 18, 2007 01:56pm (UTC)
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I think you should come visit me in england. You could stay in the spare bedroom and that would save u money instead of going to a hotel. And then id take you to the ITT building on base and get cheap tickets anywhere u wanted to go in europe. What do u think? I know, im a genius.
<3

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Adam

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from: aodh
date: February 19, 2007 10:22pm (UTC)
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You ARE a genius. I might not be able to take you up on that offer anytime soon, but I'm definitely going to think long & hard about it... thanks for the offer :) <3

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