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December 15, 2006 | 10:10pm
Mood: taking over
Music: Arman Méliès - Les Alizés

Finals sucked ass. I got $59.75 back for my textbooks. I'm back in Chicago for the first time in four months, and I really don't like it here. When the fuck can I get out of the midwest?

I spent the day looking into the Peace Corps and other foreign volunteering opportunities when I was struck with the realization that I don't actually want to help anyone--I want to learn more languages. God. I'm such a horrible, selfish person.

My father thinks I'm weird because I don't want to be in a relationship. If the opportunity were there, I'm sure I'd at least consider it, but for now... it just seems pointless to think about. Is there anyone else out there who thinks like this? And, if so, do you wanna go out? /flirting

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Bedlam boys are bonny

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from: mad_maudlin
date: December 16, 2006 05:52am (UTC)

Oh, word. I've never wanted to be in a relationship for the sake of being in a relationship, but quite obviously I have nothing against relationships when they occur. I just don't see them as the end-all, be-all of existance, so in the absence of a specific wonderful person, I'm content to be alone. I certainly wouldn't go looking for someone to be with just to be with someone.

It's an interesting little semantic game, actually...are you negating the relationship or the wanting? That is, is it true that "I don't want to be in a relationship" is equivalent to "I want to not be in a relationship"? Everyone seems to assume it is, but that's not necessarily how modals work. Consider "You must not" versus "You don't have to", for instance.

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from: aodh
date: December 16, 2006 08:58pm (UTC)

Exactly! I have far too many friends who live solely to be in a relationship, although you put it far more eloquently than I ever could.

Hmm, I actually sort of understood your second paragraph. IMHO, the new statements (modals?) are different--the former seems to be more definite (if that's the word for it) that the latter--i.e., "I definitely, absolutely do NOT want to be in a relationship" versus "I don't especially want to be in a relationship right now, but I guess it's not totally out of the realm of possibilities..." Or maybe I'm just pulling this shit out of my ass. Whatever. =)

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