July 2nd, 2016

these streets

여행에 관한 세 생각

1. Tomorrow is the 15 year anniversary of this journal. Seriously. 15 fucking years. I've been writing in it on a more or less regular basis since I was 14 years old, and now I'm a rather elderly 29. More than half my life has been jotted down in this journal. Good lord.

2. I came to Berlin yesterday. Lots of drama; basically, after going through security at the airport in Stockholm, I decided to rearrange my bag. I proceeded to reach into my bag and viciously cut my finger with my razor. It proceeded to bleed heavily for several hours. I bought some bandages and a nice worker at the duty free shop sprayed some antibacterial lotion on my finger ("It's going to hurt a lot. But you know, nothing in life is without pain," she said, and squirted the wash on my hand.). I was concerned that I wouldn't be able to fly, or that flying would make it worse, but it went alright I guess. I bought proper antiseptic at a pharmacy here in Berlin and it's looking a bit better. Still a bit raw and not entirely scabbed over yet, though.

3. I'm going to put off describing my vacation thus far until I get back to Korea. Instead, the original reason I started to write this entry; a complaint.

I'm so bored.

God, how ridiculous am I? I'm in the middle of one of the most interesting cities on Earth and I'm bored.

I always get like this, though. I almost always travel alone and I find myself to be rather dull company. I don't do anything interesting. I don't eat any new foods (outside of the hotel breakfast buffet and the stuff I buy at a supermarket). I walk a lot, take photos, go to a museum or two, and spend the rest of my time laying in my hotel room.

There are certainly ways to get past this. I can always just suck it up and do stuff alone, but honestly, I think the main issue is that I don't have a travel buddy. I've been to five countries with other people. The other 15 countries I've done alone, and almost all of them were since 2012. I'm batshit crazy and ridiculously neurotic, but I don't think I'm a horrible travel buddy, honestly? I'm fairly easygoing and open to doing anything, as long as I'm with someone else. (Alone is a different story.) But you know- the places I want to go are not the places my friends want to go. I tend to prefer somewhat less touristy countries and locations.

It kind of goes hand in hand with the issue that always arises when I travel- couples. They're everywhere in Korea (seriously, fucking everywhere), but it seems like I notice how alone I am even more when I travel. I dunno, it would be nice to travel with someone else. Whether it's a friend, family, or a partner... well, I'll take what I can get.

Also, I'm just editing this in... I should note that a good portion of my issues on this trip relate to jetlag. I'm up all night and forcing myself to go out and explore during the day, which is easier said than done.
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