I hate math.
In fact, I loathe it. I despise every single number. I abhor the fact that math is necessary to survive in this modern day society. You can't buy a tank of gas without calculating how much money you have. You can't buy a few random items at Wal-Mart or wherever without counting out your change. It's impossible.
I almost can't picture going without it, though. Throughout the majority of college and the rest of my life... no numbers. No equations which make me contemplate suicide. No feelings of ecstasy when I finally figure out how to do something correctly. No bitching when I get yet another bad grade.
Now, I'm used to bad grades. In the two classes I struggled with the most last year, Algebra/Trig and History, I failed almost every quiz and test we took. I never felt very bad about it in History. However, in Alg/Trig, I got depressed sometimes. It didn't make sense. I hated the subject, I hated the work, I despised the teacher for the majority of the first semester. Yet I still felt bad about receiving less than stellar grades and scores.
Depending on how the winds might blow, I may take only one or two more math classes for the rest of my life. And then I'll forget everything I learned. The majority of my "math skills," all down the drain.
My Aunt Ann hated math for years. She couldn't work with numbers any better than I can. She first got her major in Statistics in '98, I believe - about 20 years after she first began college. She tried to be a journalism major... hated it. English... nope. She tried different majors, dropping out a number of times, and then, one semester, to fill a requirement - she took a math class. Thanks to that teacher, after years of hating the subject, she loved it. She switched majors and finished her degree.
I have never been good at math. I struggled with multiplication, I struggled with adding, I struggled with everything. Pretty much all I can do anymore is add a few numbers and attempt the distance formula... and even then I still fuck it up half the time.
I hate math, and for all I know, I'll probably be receiving by PhD in it in 15 years. After all... that is how the world works.