March 1st, 2004

this is me

don't worry about tipping it over

I feel like a blob. I am a blob.

I try and I try and I try, but nothing I do works. I lift weights, I go on day-long "diets," I crunch and push and work my fucking ass off and nothing happens. Everything I do is ruined, due to food.

I wish I could just starve myself or purge or what the fuck ever. Anything would be better than being some 260 pound fatass. I don't want to be like my mother. I don't want to be like all of those morbidly obese people I see everywhere.

I think I should stop being by myself on weekends. I tend to go into fits of depression. (Is this a sign that I need a job? Why, yes it is!)

Love,
The Teenage Angstmonster
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