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January 13, 2012 | 07:22am
Mood: I has a sad

You know, it's hard to stay optimistic.

I can't sleep properly. I don't have any friends in Chicago. It's hard to go somewhere else, although I do have easy access to (comparatively expensive) public transportation. It's literally impossible to be alone in this house-- someone is always here and I hardly consider my bedroom comfortable enough to spend much time in. All I do is study and exercise and try not to strangle my father.

I also spend a lot of time worrying over Korea. What happens if this job falls through? What happens if it doesn't? Things will be different when I return, I know that. New school. Good friends are leaving. Different apartment. What happens if these two months changes things between my remaining friends, or worse yet- my boyfriend? Intellectually I know that if something happens it's because it wasn't solid to begin with, but I am still concerned.

I am trying not to become depressed. The last time I was here, when I finished university and spent half a year trying to find a job, was a horrible time. I have a job. I have something of substance to do with my time. I don't want to fall into the same pit I was in last time.

I've only been here for less than two weeks, you guys. How am I going to last two months?


I'm going to order the Sogang 2B and Sogang 3A textbooks today. They're far more expensive in America than in Korea, but at this rate I will complete Sogang 2A by January 29th and Sogang 2B by February 24th. That means I'd be able to complete 1.5 chapters of the 3A textbook by the time I'm back in Gwangju. That's the equivalent of over two years of university Korean. It'll be like I'm going to study abroad during my third year. Haha. Making up for lost time?

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Adam

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from: aodh
date: January 14, 2012 01:08am (UTC)
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It was mostly just complaining, but you had some really good advice. I particularly like the idea of going to a coffee shop to study. It'll give me a change of environment. I don't know if I have enough time to start a class (or even a job, honestly)-- I should be here for only 1.5 more months (knock on wood). But... something does have to change. Thanks so much for your thoughts, Z! :)

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LadyEquinox

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from: ladyequinox
date: January 14, 2012 01:42am (UTC)
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Adam, you totally missed the point of Z's post. YOU NEED TO TAKE A SWING DANCING CLASS!!!!!! Do it. Do it. SWING DANCING. Or any DANCING. Dance. Dance. Dance. Or better yet! Find a polka class!!!!!!!!! <3

~Nox

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Adam

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from: aodh
date: January 14, 2012 01:58am (UTC)
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... I feel as if you don't recall my complete ineptitude at dancing. I've only been gone two weeks!! Don't tell me you've forgotten already!! ;_;

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